Confession: My Sexuality and My Bitch Friends

Okay, this was just happened two days ago. I don’t know if I regret telling my friends about my sexuality. I have been confused about my sexuality 4 years ago when I fell in love with a woman, okay I am a woman too. I kept that for years because I’m so afraid what people would think and I am not sure what is happening to me.

When finally, one day, after a lot of talking to people and searching about it, I came to an answer that I am BISEXUAL.

As time pass, I slowly getting use to control my feelings and all the stuff but telling to others was a big NO NO to me. It was so hard for me to stay back and be a closet queen. Even my closest friends and my family doesn’t know about it, afraid what will they say.

Then one day, I tried to tell my group of close friends. At first, they like, “okay, if that’s you, what can we do? We love you whatever you want” and then as I confess to them it feels like the atmosphere is changing. They laugh at what I say and they are telling me some bad things. I sit back for a bit and just listen to what they say. Until one of them said, “if you’re a bisexual then you are okay with dick and vaginas? What the hell?” I was shocked with the question. Then someone said, “You better look for dick not vagina, you are destroying your eggcells and you cannot make kids when you choose Vagina.”

What? I want to scream on them at that time but I held back. At first, I thought they understood me but in the end, they are persuading me not to like vaginas. Gosh! They are telling me to become straight. Come on! If I can do that, then I will right now. Because of what they told me, I got mad at them. I thought they will not judge me or belittle me but I am wrong. After the conversation, I regret that I told them that I am BISEXUAL..

Until now, my parents and other friends doesn’t know about my sexuality. I asked my bitch friends not to say anything and they said yes, but now, I don’t know if I can hold onto that YES they told me.

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9 thoughts on “Confession: My Sexuality and My Bitch Friends

  1. I think if we’re honest with ourselves we realize that we fall in love with, or are sexually attracted to, a person – gender itself has far less to do with it than we have been conditioned to believe.

    Sexuality is pretty primal stuff – hard to civilize and tame, but society sure hasn’t given up trying.

    Be who and what you are, and don’t worry about who knows (your friends and family) who and what that is.

    T

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  2. Coming from a lesbian, only YOU know how you feel. You can like both. It is possible. And no one can tell you not to! Usually people come around (if they’re really your friends) and in time it will be natural for them. Don’t limit yourself because of what other people think. Be you and do what you need to do!

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  3. Wow, your friends are rubbish. Ok that was harsh but good genuine friends may not agree with your perspective but they’re happy knowing you’re happy. The fact that they were laughing at you shows a lack of disrespect (or nervousness). It sounds like they might need some education to kill their ignorance.

    Fall in love with whoever you want – I tend to describe it as ‘I’m attracted to the person, not their sex organs’. Although one friend asked me about my sexual status and I replied with “whatever’s going!” ;)

    Stop comparing yourself to society, being bi is normal. As is being gay and being straight. Its weird to finally get used to the idea that this is you but boy, once you do, you can truly own it and be proud.

    And I’m totally with you too – I’ve never told my family. Its not that I’m ashamed at all, I just don’t think I need to tell them who I like to have sex with. I never sat them down and told them that I’m straight, so why should I sit them down and tell them I’m bi? Its my personal life. Once I’ve dated a girl long enough that I’m comfortable, I’ll introduce her to my family as my girlfriend, just like I would for a boyfriend. My reality is far more complicated though, try explaining polyamory to old people!

    If your ‘friends’ go and tell people you’re bi, don’t worry. Don’t even bat an eyelid. Its the same as them telling people you have a leg. Its normal! It’s your life and you can do what you want in it :) Go out and meet some girls and get your confidence up :D

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  4. Unconditional love is so rare a thing. People have their own issues and hangups. I would say, who needs them, but what if they can still be your friends… what if they are simply idiots or are afraid? Friendships can be complex. Try starting with telling them your reaction to their tasteless jokes. Let them know that you opened up to them and they betrayed your trust by hurting your feelings and behaving intolerantly. Tell them you need their support as friends. If they ultimately cannot accept you as you are, then maybe they are not really friends. Not everyone can deal with issues of sexuality. Not everyone is comfortable with their own sexuality. I remember a time (the 80s) when experimenting with bisexuality was en vogue. I even tried dating a woman (girl, actually), but it was not my cup of tea. You are not the only bisexual woman. You are not alone.

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  5. I am a man of bisexual orientation, married to a woman of similar orientation, for almost 16 years now.

    Our relationship has had some interesting and difficult turns in that regard, but… it works. I am happy. I have friends and family in this situation– they’ve chosen differently, but, all I really care about is that they are happy. At the end of the day, I just want people to be who they are, do their best, and to be happy. I’m not really concerned about the details; my end goal in my existence is my own, and theirs is theirs. I don’t lose sleep at night worrying about how they are mistaken, wrong, or not doing what I do. In my experience, it’s fruitless. I’d just rather enjoy people as they are. Hopefully, your friends will come to much the same conclusion.

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