(First, go to this post if you don’t know what my #Before30BucketList is. I’ll also be going back to that and noting each goal accomplished and maybe adding or editing some items, if you want to keep up but miss out on some of my posts.)
This was one of those items I found on another Things To Do Before You’re 30 list on the internet. I wasn’t really sure about it but it was a new one so I figured I’d add it to my list.
I overlooked it for a while, thinking I could easily finish it much later on in the year and that maybe it would give me more time to think of something genius to say. But then I got on a roll one week, knocking out item after item, and I wanted to keep it up so I went for it.
First my mind tricked me and everything I thought ended up more-so being present me writing advice to future me, so I spent hours looking through every top article on Google until I found the one that had this goal, where I looked more closely this time and read “Write the letter as if you are already 30, write everything you have experienced in your 30s even if for now it’s just pretend. Doing this really helps to show yourself what your dreams are and what you would like to have experienced and achieved by the time you reach 30.”
So first, that makes no sense. You can’t write a letter as if you’re 30 and explain everything that has happened to you in your 30s. So I altered it and decided I’d be 39, exactly ten years from now, writing to myself now. Only I also didn’t like the whole “write everything you have experienced” because I haven’t experienced those things yet. I didn’t want it to be one of those wish-lists because ultimately there’s always at least one thing you haven’t accomplished or changed your mind about and while they may be eye-opening for some people, they always make me sad. For instance, when I was 17 I wrote that when I was 19 I was supposed to have finished my first novel and moved to Paris with an old boyfriend. Literally none of that happened, and it just makes me laugh at myself (and not in a good way) when I go back and read my high hopes.
So I made this one a little more lenient. I gave a little advice and I gave a little “future premonitions” but mostly I made sure I knew that everything was (is) going to be okay. Because everyone deserves to hear that. Even when you don’t achieve your goals from ten years ago, you’ve achieved so many more that you didn’t even think of back then. And that’s what I wanted to focus on. (Plus the two major things I’m working on right now that I’m super motivated to accomplish.)
If you can’t read the photo, it says:
“Dear 29 year old me,
It was all worth it. I’m where I’m supposed to be. And you’ll get me here. Thank you — for all your achievements, failures, close-calls, perseverance, much-needed breaks. For all the screw ups and perfections. For the crazy mind that I still have, but have learned to embrace and handle better.
I’m surrounded by love and life. And there’s still so much ahead. Listen to Augusten’s advice about writing every day — you’ll finish your book and I’ll write another. Oh, and stop smoking. I can afford way more adventures now.
Love, 39 year old you.
(p.s. – 11 years!)”
And now reading this makes me happy. Because I know I believe in myself and the path I take even if it differs from the path I set. And hopefully if I do read this again ten years from now, I’ll feel the same way.
Companions: Pen & Paper
None, I used items I already had.
Goal Total: $0
11th Goal Accomplished
List Item #41: Write A Letter To Yourself Now (At 29) As If You’re 39
Bucket List Total: $167